Crawling - Linkin Park

The taxi driver has been staring at the tourist boobs. I was in the car, watching him from far side, while waiting for granny. While the girl walking here and there, he pretended to walk around too, until he get the right angle.
It's funny sometimes when u observed someone from far you can actually see what is within their eye, what is hiding beneath their poker face.
Today I drop all my acids and alkaline behind my head. I had a great day with my family.
This christmas was kinda concentrated for me, the acidic was bit too much. However I manage to self dilute and it was converted to a neutral solution. The acidic was kinda low in pH and my bottle wasn't be able to store it. When it was finally diluted, addition alkaline was present out of no where. It was troublesome to convert it and most importantly, it cost everything. I swear to God it wasn't my idea to add that much of acids and alkaline in it, I didn't ask for it. So I have to make a decision either to stay alkaline or acid.. Or neutral. I choose neutral. And the job went easier. All the headache for the solution was avoided. I'm no longer have to worried about the condition now. All I need to do is just record and observed.
Damn the pervert driver!



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Little Friend - Nickleback

Cha cha and her little friend (=    
Look at her, so small~
And then she is lost..

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Carol of the Bells - August Burn Red

Had a blast these few days. I just love Caroling (=

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New Life - Blind Melon

finally im a bit free to do my own stuff. read back my previous entry, it was a mess! infro tumbling and not sequence. haha~ silly. anyway his room is under renovation now, need some small tiny stuff to complete it, im sure after my touch, everything will be prefect! lol

counting down my days to another new year, time flies huh! another blink of eye i would turn 27, never actually though i could live that long. haha! ok stop pessimist thinking.. speaking of which, its time to review my new year resolution:

1) Practice reading, at least 3 books. √ check - I'd read 5 ^^

2) Go abroad and live like a beggar! √ half check - not abroad but lived like one 

3) Adopt new hobby, like swimming? √ half check too - more frequent than before at least

4) New chemist license, CSJ and RSC before i..  x unable - postpone to 2011

5) Learn to ride a bike! (just found out when talking to baby) x fail - no bike! haha lame excuse

6) Find myself a someone.. √ check - i found more than 1. i already found back all the precious people around me! 

and still thinking for the 2011 new year resolution:

1) Another 3 books for good reading habit

2) At least 1 theological book

3) New chemist license > specifically RSC

4) Complete my post grad in 2013

5) Continue my yoga

6) Polish my swimming skills (dad said that 2/3 of our world is cover with water so human should know how to swim)

7) Travel overseas at least twice (BKK May already.. hehe)

later~

Make Damn Sure - Taking Back Sunday

Gee I'm so busy until I have to choose and eliminate event for a day. So far maximum (not really a lot) I can have like 3 events per night including wedding, tuition, working, church practises, event and event.. Tuition rescheduled and sometimes terpaksa sacrifice some event such as my sayang's wedding. Sorry babe!
Last night I miss bev's wedding eve dinner, but I manage to settle the other 2. Tonight I only manage to went to bev's nikah and rescheduled others 2. Tomorrow only 1 Christmas party for my kids and sadly another sorry for bev )= Saturday was thinking to rescheduled the tuition but I can't because I have to go for the practice. Luckily the stupid supplier cancel their tip, else i have to troublesome Sally for the OT (well I know she more than glad to help juga. Lol). next weekend another IKM trip. Haven't register yet, not sure if I'm going since Kay is not. If I'm going to that trip then I won't have any time to shop anymore! No!!!! I even haven't bought any pressie for family yet, hmmm have to really scheduled up! December is always too short for me. And I haven't even bought B present yet, her day is coming and I still haven't bought anything too! Maybe next week la, and why they like to make me choose between my church event? Company first annual dinner on next tue which clash with my Carolling. Bengang juga this! What to do, they knew my decision and they still wanted to tempt me. Lord give my strength!
Bev finally married to suf miruku. I miss a lot of her function. I feel bad. Miss her bachelor dinner, miss the wedding eve and also the wedding banquet. Dang I'm a horrible friend... Looking at them really makes me jealous sometimes. She went through a lot, in the end, they are together. Really feel glad for her, hopes that someday I can be in my own fairy tales, and keeping my finger cross wishing that the clock won't strike 12. Lord I surrender everything to you. You are my shelter and my strength, I will rely only to You.
12:25am and I'm still typing. Today I finished my daily busy run, another super busy day coming ahead tomorrow!

Signing off
12:27am
Good night Lord, have a sweet dreams in heaven!


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I Can Only Imagine - Hope Presbyterian

Had a blissful day in my workplace, the stress and tense filled my mind and soul, now he is in the same company with me, our conversation couldn't be more interesting than our daily routine boring job.
Deeply inhale and exhale the deadly sense from my lab, the recent familiar smell of the formaldehyde with a lil sour acetic acid vapour, attach along the various solvent filled my nostril after those funny story I heard really torturing sometimes. I mean sometimes.. Well I think I'm still capable for those pressure I suppose..
Then, met my lil brother just now, his present in the room enough to increased my blood pressure, forget about his act, his words n his presentation, his attitude really pissed me off.
Most of the time I adore the graceful patience by my old man, they really kept it under their vain and heart without showing it bit off their face. All of the accumulated burden eventually projected on their face, health and smile. Wrinkles, and more wrinkles continuously showing on their most darling faces; joint pain and blood pressure which is not within our words to describe; and the craved smile, which as a child you would know it is so hard to ignore their pain.
All of these are incomparable with what I'm having, my stress are just nothing.
I turn on a gospel radio Today In The Word by Dr Gary Chapman, pastor preach about how difference human being project themselves. The words from God is my only cure and heal. He is always my shelter and my only help. The preach calm my pumping heart, bit by bit, pulse by pulse (well I can't deny there is a drop of tear, or two). By end of the talk, I'm all fine. And again, it remind me that for Lord is my only cure, I'm so glad that I have Him in my life. And thank you Lord I'm only a sinful human who doesn't even deserved a hand, Lord not only gave me both of His hand, He gave me his Hug. Sorry I'm not strong enough to face all these drama, maybe all these while I'm just pretending I'm tough, silly me.
Went for the state singing competition for my church, it doesn't matter who won, as long as we all went there with the same heart, to worship and to glorify our heavenly Father (=

My day end with a blessed smile. Thank you Abba Father. Thank you for everything. Good night Lord. Sleep tight in heaven yea..


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Today's Schedule - Buckethead

Ok another summary of a busy November and December,

November

07        Christmas Checkers night meeting √ check!

09-11   Biofuel InternationalAsia Expo & Conference + business trip √ check!

14        Christmas Checkers night meeting √ check!

17        JYF worship team practice for 28th Nov √ check!

21        Christmas Checkers night meeting √ check!

25        JYF worship team practice for 28th Nov √ check!

27        Bassist for sunday service √ check!

28        Combined program of JYF and SYF, JYF worship leading √ check!

            Christmas Checkers night meeting √ check!

29        BCCM State Singing Competition Finale - Sunday School Categories √ check!

30        BCCM State Singing Competition Finale - Adult and Youth Categories √ check!

December

01        Tuition
02        JYF worship team practice for 12th Dec  √ check!

03        Beverley's bachelor night x sorry babe~

03-04   JYF Annual Church Orientation Camp@ Church √ check!

            - Whole year activities updates √ check!

            - 03 night 2 hours ice breaking √ check!

05        Christmas Checkers night meeting, Finalized! √ check!

            - Purchase party pack door gift x postponed

            - Arrangement for ice breaking activities √ check!

            - Payment and confirmation of deposit x postponed to 06 Dec

06        JYF worship team practice for 12th Dec x cancel
             Christmas checkers night party pack door gift purchase √ check!
07        JYF worship team practice for 12th Dec x cancel

08        JYF worship team practice for 12th Dec √ check!
             Beverley's wedding eve dinner @ her house x couldn't make it )=
09        Beverley's traditional wedding tea ceremony @ her house √ check!

            Beverley's nikah night @ Sufri's house √ check!
            Tuition x postponed to 13 Dec
             JYF worship team practice for 12th Dec x unable to attend
10        Beverley's wedding banquette night @ Hyatt x sorry babe~

            JYF Christmas Checkers Night @ Jack & Pot cafe √ check!

11        JYF worship team practice for 12th Dec √ check!

12        JY sunday mass worship leading √ check!
13        Tuition x cancel

14        Gaya Street Carolling (i love caroling ^^) √ check!
             Company annual dinner @ Hyatt √ check!
16        Church practices √ check!
16        Tuition √ check!

16-18   Church Caroling (weee!!) √ check check check!
18-19    IKM outing x unable to attend )=
24        Rehealsal for Christmas eve √ check!
22        Runion dinner @ mami's house
23        Rehealsal for Christmas eve 

24        Worship dance performance (haven't started anything yet!!)

26        JY Christmas performance- modern dance (adviser)
30        Tuition x cancel

31        Parents return!

Additional 

1) Christmas deco, pressie, mum's birthday (even though she wont be here).. basically its about Christmas shopping... hehehehhhehe

2) Me and her next year trip! - ticket + visa + location and location and location! wee~

The Miniature Earth . 2010 edition

The Miniature Earth . 2010 edition

Found a very good way to contribute to our society (for those who care), go toThe Miniature Earth website and follow the instruction as given, herewith attached the instruction

I always love the environment, i wish that one day i can be green enough to help the earth.

Cure - Metallica

Today the skin dried and healing i suppose? Swollen part from d face subsided, a slim layer of skin sheet was form results from rejection of the infection.
Enough of bleeding lips, so no smile for these few days, I replace it with paper smile (=

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Face - Aerosmith

Allergy getting better after injection. D face was so horrible this morning. Hopefully it will gone by dawn.

Have a nice day to myself hehe

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Permissive Twit - Gilbert Osullivan

Found out that twitter has their own profile customized widget. i know im always late, but who care right? the widget is kinda cute compare to lots of commercial one. own composed and customized according to your preferences. check this out (=

Twitter widget

Allergies - Barenaked Ladies

another allergies strike, this time I'm not sure what. symptoms? rashes on my face. again? yes. maybe my face have bigger surface area. haha! it was so itch and annoying, luckily I'm still sick with mask on, half of it was covered. skilled!
come to think about if,  wasn't sure if it was the tomatoes, that small kind of cutie reddish tomatoes. i ate that night before. the itch shows directly, i though it was the salt anyway. well my skin rashes allergy wasn't obnoxious type which highly chance lead to asthma, abdominal symptoms, eczema or headaches, mine was more to a physical effect.
some say, this was label as food intolerance, which can lead to the appearance of certain symptoms, but it is not life threatening and, even if the symptoms are hard to bear, they are not as bad as in an allergy. however for food allergy, among the symptoms are a swollen mouth, hives, vomiting, diarrhea, or difficult breathing and skin rash. 
so what are mine? i have rashes and some swollen skin, no vomiting, diarrhea (so far), not even know if it was the tomatoes, funny~
however, this wont stop me, I'm just too stubborn and couldn't care more. i eat what i like.

logging off
12:55pm

Read more at http://www.wrongdiagnosis.com/f/food_allergy_tomato/intro.htm?ktrack=kcplink

asthma, abdominal symptoms, eczema or headaches.Read more at http://www.wrongdiagnosis.com/f/food_allergy_tomato/intro.htm?ktrack=kcplink

Solutioneering Together - Yanmar

Finally the video has up! Ch'ng san was the key person. Really impress that he actually made it on the country of the rising sun.

Ch'ng san is a Malaysia, born here, raise here. Studied in Japan after high school then enrolled to Yanmar, one of the main leading diesel engine company in Japan. He married a Japanese and blessed with a little boy. He was the translator when our PM visited Japan. Quite a nice resume on his shoulder. I can only imagine the toughness and burden living in a foreign country.

Yanmar sponsored a number of media program station in Japan such as

• Yanbo Marbo Weather Forecast (ヤン坊マー坊天気予報, Yanbo-marbo tenki yoho)
• Yanmar Sponsored Fuji TV News (ヤンマー提供FTVニュース, Yanmar teikyo FTV nyusu) on Fuji News Network.
• Yanmar Family Hour (ヤンマーファミリーアワー, Yanmar famiri awa) on Tokyo Broadcasting System Television, including

1. Fly Songoku! (飛べ!孫悟空, tobe songoku), a puppet show based on the classical Chinese novel Journey to the West.
2. The Chance! (ザ・チャンス!, za chiansu), an American Price is Right style game show.

One of the tv station decided to cintribute a discovory program dedicated for Yanmar, storying on contribution of Japan government on Republic of Mali (research done in YKRC) and also the story of Ch'ng san. The program was shown in Japan public tv station on early november.

Few snap shot was publish in Yanmar website Earth Challenge.

Chiao~ 

Never Thought - Colt Ford

Sitting here on my desk, thinking on how to complete my proposal by sunday.. never ever thought of coming to this point of my life. I am 26 years old and only now im pursuing my master degree. its not that pursuing a master degree on my age is an issue for me, just that master? some more in environmental science? i know i used to dream about it those title and respect i would get, bla bla bla.. my registration forms are completed, those copies of papers are certified and closing date for the proposal, 10th Nov. Come to think about it, its becoming a reality now. i just thought that a dream will always stay dreams... creepy

Planning on proposing a biodiesel topic on its deterioration mechanism research, investigating on different feedstock characteristic and its storing condition, also planning to complete the research in a year and another year for the dissertation writing.


i dont know where i am in another 2 years. maybe we are all dead if the apocalypse are true. and that is being so looser by believing it. for me of course i wish im no longer here, in my location and position now. which mean i would be living in some other place where people can accept us for who we are. there is no plan b. just keep my finger cross my plan works.


and why the hell whenever i try to write on something i always look back and morn about it? i complaint too much, look back too much, i have to lullaby myself that my life is brilliant and perfect. im such a jerk. the only good thing i know is complaining and complaining and complaining. sick of it and look at me, complaining again. gosh.. FML.


lullaby time, im so grateful for what i have, specially the best family ever and the best ever soul mate. will always pray for them.. sincerely, i am blessed! <3

happy deepavali!


oh ya speaking of season greetings, my fav once a year christmas is around the corner. so happy and exited (= wish i can plan for something better this year. like a small getaway might help!! weee...


again~ happy deepavali!


xoxo

A Thought... - Enya

1) Katy perry gets her revenge on elmo by wearing it on her! Over the weekend, she was the musical guest on "Saturday Night Live." She sported a low-cut Elmo T-shirt in a skit, mocking the cancellation of her "Sesame Street" video.

2) The proposed mixed commercial development project next to the 105 years old Atkinson clock tower at the foot of Signal Hill was approved by the State Cabinet. This raise a lot of unsatisfy parties for this historical icon in Kota Kinabalu and was called to re-assess the proposed project to our Chief Minister Datuk Seri Musa Aman.

3) A tv station and media from Japan came for a whole day video shooting in my company, activities include, acting, drama, posing, pretending and so on. so fake.. lol

4) My lips starting to get itch since im nack from Sg, never know the waste water recycle actually good for my skin, it actually get cured when i was there. what a shock!

5) There has been too many accident recently, people lost their life, and families in jst a blink. Im actually worried about the trip, hope he can drive safe and most importantly, be safe!

6) Condolence to cosmetic queen's families and ppl who involved. May God bless the loves one and judgement for those who deserved it. Our world is sinned!

Greedy Ugly People - Hefner

viewing all those picture from her really makes me felt bad, looking at my life, sometimes, just sometimes, how i wish i can have a taste of it.
currently employed with a very successful company with a highly self satisfy career on my hand, and a perfect mate, which going to join my employed provider soon on the other hand, i shouldnt be more demanding than anyone else should had. but the greed in my heart rise up the issue of my life experience, which lead me to my greed im having now.
i wish to have a promotion in coming years, i wish for acceptable increment, (or i wish for a better new employer if these doesnt works) i want to live a dream life, i want him to be more successful than i am, i wish to be relocate in new country, i wish to have my own family, i wish for a simple life, no bumpy road no disaster.
i consistently view my life with anger, thinking that there is sure rooms for improvement, but when we spin a lil of our brain with a 90 degree rotate, most of my life im moaning about how bad it is without realising how stupid i was, i have a perfect life (not really perfect perfect!), God bless me too much that im started to vomit my blessing and complain bout it. never realise im taking everything for granted. such an ugly heart!
there is too much things to be learn, view, taste and live. but doesnt mean we have to own every single of it to live up a fulfill life. sometimes things is better to be unreached so we could always have the urge and crave, by that we will be more appreciate of our life and.. always give thanks to our beloved Father, for He know our greedy heart but He still love us unconditionally. 
It is better for dream to stay dream..
Life is great. Life is always great now

Love The Way You Lie - Eminem ft. Rihanna

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off her love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me, she fuckin' hates me
And I love it, "wait, where you goin'?"
"I'm leavin' you," "no you ain't come back"
We're runnin' right back, here we go again
So insane, cause when it's goin' good it's goin' great
I'm superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whose that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you with em you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills used to get em
Now you're getting fuckin' sick of lookin' at em
You swore you'd never hit em, never do nothin' to hurt em
Now you're in each other's face spewin' venom in your words when you spit em
You push pull each other's hair
Scratch claw hit em throw em down pin em
So lost in the moments when you're in em
It's the rage that's the culprit, controls you both
So they say it's best to go your seperate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playin' over
But you promised her next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me
When it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby please come back, it wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time there won't be no next timw
I apologize even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar if she ever tries to fuckin' leave again
I'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

Allergies - Barenaked Ladies

The rambutan effect is finally showing. Funny part is, it doesn't bother me, in fact I had some after my dinner today, who cares right?
Did some reading and know that rambutan is not actually a fruit, it is under the category of tree nut, closest family 'longan' and 'lychi'. Wow totally new info and now I'm allergic to nut? Holy crap!
The allergy thingie totally dictract me from someone, well thanks God, cos it might be His will and I'm ready to obey. Luckily the allergy and some errand keep my head busy, else I will be another psycho freak worried about almost everything and might even pee on my self. Well I'm not totally a psycho freak but sometime it's in our blood that female were born to overdo everything! We can't help to not imagine, we can't help to not worried, the estrogen contribute a lots on this, speaking of which, I read that hormone (eg adrenaline) can help to reduce the effect of food allergy, info reliability? Zero. But despite the fastest way to cure is to inject on my ass, adrenaline sounds fun. And seriously my skin is turning redish specially on my eye lid, itch!!!! I can almost felt the heart beat throwing out from all over the face. And my curious, why only face? Any specific reason? Someone please at least contribute on this research regarding on tree nut allregies? Hello?
But anyhow, am still gonna have some rambutan later, so fuck the allergy!

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