Stupid, Stupid War - Dri

its 12:45, i had my lunch and im half laying on my chair in front of my desk, with my eye half open, ticking sound from my watch, and inhaling the 25ºC stupid  air-cond. im suffocated. 

thinking about the poker face with the allowance idea, LMFAO! i had an increment of 40 this year and why on earth will they provide daily meal allowance? well, i dont spread my leg do i? guess someone changed the rule over the empire. new queen raise, new policy new allowance new request new demand. the king is just sniffing the ass walking closely behind the almighty. providing everything that being requested. 

for we are the noble slave, as usual our need were not being noticed. well, why am i not surprise? oh! maybe we are just stupid malaysia who cannot think! who malaysia do not produce any good professor, researcher or any engineer. only the country of the 2 legs do. whole nation of mine were humiliated and look at me, still slaved by them. wondering when can i found my new master to free me from this cold 2-legs! who actually think that they are smart, best mind-set ever. I dont like you say that this is malaysia style, I dont like you say this is chemistry way, please think with your head.. well how bout please do not be so fucking arrogant and think that you are smart! to my government, please please! reconsider the fund you going to waste on them! it is not worth!

Fool, Fool, Fool - Elvis Presley

Almost in my 20 ages I've been fooled by people around me, except my family of course. It makes me realized that, u can't actually trust anyone even ironicly, the one you trust the most. Trust easily delivered and I'm in the game again. Giving out from the most sincere heart and taken by the most ungreatfully soul. Sometimes, I think I shouldn't be that naive I can say, that beliving one do goods and it will be return someday. What is dedicated was stepped harder and harder everytime. Maybe i snapped this time cos I really can't do this anymore. Cruel world is the only excuse I have for myself, and I'm stupid enough to fall for it again and again.

My father once told me:
Fooled me once, shame on you.
Fooled me twice, shame on me.

And hell ya it's all my fault!!! Like usuall! Gimme a break!


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Yesterday - Beatles

Everything used to be perfect before, when there is no wound, no mistake. since Adam took the apple, Eve bare all the fault and blamed for the entire drama.
I miss her so much, miss how can we always talk like before, miss how we are for each other, miss how we share every single boredness. Since then, I'm so alone and I only have my tears and words. I realized I'm actually alone. I'm suffocated for the string that has been so tight on my neck, I struggle and pray for it is the only thing I could do.. . for now...
Just by time I'm almost feeling success and joy, clock strike 12 and dream crush. Maybe I can never get out from my secure land, been crawling around the circle, like how God punished the chosen one. I'm tasting my punishment now, God is taking back all the dreams, telling me to wake up girl! Wake up! It's already 12. And I will go back to the old bored nothing fancy life that I used to have, just like yesterday.
I'm sorry Father, and thank you for the dream.. And i just wish that I will never wake up again..

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