She Is - Fray

She is leaving in a week time, when we met just now we cried. We both know each other so well and deep down there is no one as understand as her.

There is so much I wanted to tell but time is not on my side, after this I don't know when can we ever meet again despite what is going to happen soon. Things changed and we both accepted it.

For now, I pray that angels will be with her in every circumstances. I pray to Lord to take care of her, be strong on everything for Lord is the shepherd we shall not fear. We are strong girls we can survive..

I love you

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Sometimes - Papa Roach

Sometimes I get so weird, I even freak myself out, I have think to make me sleep, cos it's my only lullaby.

Sometimes I drive so fast, just to feel the danger, I wanna scream it makes me feel alive.

Sometimes I talk so loud, just to be the attention, wondering why there is no one care.

Sometimes I walked within the line, but I still craving for the adrenaline, wanting to feel the blood rushing to my brain, tasting the pain through my vain and smelling the air bursting into my lung.

Sometimes i hate myself, being so perky and clumsy, thinking it would be perfect if I would be a man, so I could just ditch everything and be myself.

Sometimes I even hate everything, always falling into the wrong places and wrong timelines.

Sometimes i break my promise, cos being nice wasn't fun anymore.

Sometimes I want to be prestige, chasing my power and reputation, and even that couldn't satisfy my hunger of searching.

Sometimes I talk crap, just to act that I know life, always wish to be that someone who deliver the inspiration and messages.

Sometimes it's fun to be rude and bossy, so life would be fair that even me have the chance to yell.

Sometimes i want to be pretty, being masculine was not even attractive or sweet.

Sometimes I wish I lost my memory, I even dream that I can re-live my life, anything that makes me human.

Sometimes, just sometimes I wish I am dumb and naive, so I can live life happily, no worries and burden, and everything will be so gorgeous! and most important thing is, I don't have to feel annoyed with myself anymore..




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Love Me Dead - Ludo

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self‑seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
(1Corinthian 13:4-8)

To be in love you will need a lot of courage specially when it is a real compliacted one. Sometimes people will get lost and forgot that love actualy keeps no record of wrongs. When someone actually asking you to payout for what you had done and counting your mistake, that is not love anymore. It could be a revenge or joke, definately it's not love.

But love is a very objective topic, it's either you love or you not. As simple as that. There is no slightly love, no love with hatret, postpond love or any word you used to describe it. It is just as simple as > love! (so far it's my own definition)

Love is a blessing from God to show us and let us know how much He love us and show us how much He is willing to sacrifice for us. I know what love could lead to, I tasted love and know how much is love, I breath the sacrifice and smell the pain, but comparing to Gods love, we are nothing.

For God so love the world, He send His only son.. Now I'm glad and treasure that I have God as my shepherd, He make me realise what is love.. And I'm still the simple human who seek for it.. I need love..




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