Never Thought - Colt Ford

Sitting here on my desk, thinking on how to complete my proposal by sunday.. never ever thought of coming to this point of my life. I am 26 years old and only now im pursuing my master degree. its not that pursuing a master degree on my age is an issue for me, just that master? some more in environmental science? i know i used to dream about it those title and respect i would get, bla bla bla.. my registration forms are completed, those copies of papers are certified and closing date for the proposal, 10th Nov. Come to think about it, its becoming a reality now. i just thought that a dream will always stay dreams... creepy

Planning on proposing a biodiesel topic on its deterioration mechanism research, investigating on different feedstock characteristic and its storing condition, also planning to complete the research in a year and another year for the dissertation writing.


i dont know where i am in another 2 years. maybe we are all dead if the apocalypse are true. and that is being so looser by believing it. for me of course i wish im no longer here, in my location and position now. which mean i would be living in some other place where people can accept us for who we are. there is no plan b. just keep my finger cross my plan works.


and why the hell whenever i try to write on something i always look back and morn about it? i complaint too much, look back too much, i have to lullaby myself that my life is brilliant and perfect. im such a jerk. the only good thing i know is complaining and complaining and complaining. sick of it and look at me, complaining again. gosh.. FML.


lullaby time, im so grateful for what i have, specially the best family ever and the best ever soul mate. will always pray for them.. sincerely, i am blessed! <3

happy deepavali!


oh ya speaking of season greetings, my fav once a year christmas is around the corner. so happy and exited (= wish i can plan for something better this year. like a small getaway might help!! weee...


again~ happy deepavali!


xoxo