went to my first class today after frozen for a year, The Proverbs.
Lecturer mentioned that this is a good start for a year as we human, really need wisdom from our Lord as new year has begin. What had happened last year, mistake that we walk through and falls that we been through, we never have to repeat it again. This year we should pray and ask for wisdom so all the pass will remain the pass.
Truly glad that i picked this class as i had the worst year in my life in 2008. My thirst for wisdom from Lord is always 1st in my pray list! Lord im here and im surrendering myself, please guide me. Spare my mistake and bless me with knowledge and wisdom.
Suddenly read back Erlinna's blog. im tearing in the whole reading process..
Erlinna was my secondary classmate. she stay for a years in KKHS and then transfer to another school after form 1. she is a very tall girl, quiet, ayu, pretty (yes she is so pretty!) and good in english. i remember we always ask for vocab and assistant because she is really good in english in her young age. If im not mistaken she is the representative of form 1 for english club.
"Diagnosed with salivary gland cancer in June 2006, she undergo surgery to remove part of her face, went for chemo & radio therapy and finished in November 2006. It seems that everything is going to be okay and she is going to survive the battle. January 2007 not long after her therapy, she was diagnosed with brain cancer. The doctor said that her cancer cells are very aggressive and have spread to other part of her body..."
"... Did I cry? Yes I did, on my bed in the hotel, while taking my shower, but not in front of her family. When you have found an almost perfect women, been together almost 4 years now, and have been engage, it’s hard not to cry. I pray that she will again survive this battle."
loosing someone that important, who is your one and only soul mate of life, is no difference compare to death. I would have tears to death and even bring it to my grave if it would have to be me.. i pray that Paival is recovered and be even stronger than before. truly and deepest condolence to Erlinna's family.
after few years Erlinna's story still bring courage and bravery to me. I will look up to her and survive! Lord may the peace be with her family and Paival from now and forever. Amen.
Was quite marveled and flattered this morning when i finally received my approval letter for upgrading my chemist license, finally im a Associate member for Malaysian Institute of Chemistry! woohoo!! an abrupt change from melancholy behavior to lunatic now! moreover a replied mail from Kurokawa san that im also qualified for Chemical Society of Japan (CSJ), and another application for Royal Society of Chemistry, Europe (RSC) up coming~ ok im over whelmed for the status but finally i achieved my 1st resolution! i mean so soon!!??!?~ hehe.. hope the RSC application will approved by only providing one refree from RSC member Dr. Noumie. (keeping my finger cross)
so if everything success, i shall hold a name with all the qualification which really help a lot in my CV. (imagining my title: Beverly Kah, B. Sc. (Hons), Affiliate member of IUPAC, AMIC, MRSC, CSJ... bwahahahah) maybe i should be thinking of proceeding my master in chemistry or environmental chemistry? so another add up of M.Sc.? hmm~~ OH MY GOSH!! i never even have a split though of mastering in chemistry! now that second of thought already penetrate into my mind! what am i thinking? i should be mastering in MBA instead MSc.. @$%#@! ok sorry Lord for my bad mouth! well i lead everything to God, for my future is inscrutable, hope He will lead me either to even mastering in science or business or neither one.
this achievement kinda boost up my confident, i mean in my career.. somehow? and seems like i cant just simply switch my career else everything will be so wasted~ but anyhow to most of the people it actually mean nothing, i mean for most of those professional they dont even have any title, laying low, so this actually mean nothing also, however im still flattered! hehe.. (ignoring the surrounding and syok sendiri with abundance of feelings overflowed)
ok i should stop these melodrama.. stop being perky!
Looking back in end of last year, i was so energetic, full with new year wishes and new hope. I still remember my new year resolution.. i mean some of them..
1) Improved my spiritual life (i did!)
2) Publish paper and contribute to renewable energy firm (fail)
3) Upgrade my chemist license (yeap!).
4) dont remember..
.. ending this century in another 2 days, what is my new year resolution? funny i dont have one. im like an empty shell with no soul. looking back this year, i dont know what have i achieved. Work is a mess, spiritual life is falling apart, life even in a shit hole. This year i stop to do my account since my hand bag was stolen, ever since then, i spend like hell. a lot on unnecessary stuff like.. i dont even know what!!???!!
never know when we are in ages, time flies supremely fast. in a blink of eye we are in heaven with a perfect job and perfect life; in a slip of breath we have nothing on our hand. Prophet said that we came to this earth with empty handed, we shall leave this earth with nothing too.. just never know i can experience the 2nd sentence so fast. what a year! fuh~!
Here i set and even writing down my new year resolution:
1) Practice reading, at least 3 books.
2) Go abroad and live like a beggar!
3) Adopt new hobby, like swimming?
4) New chemist license, CSJ and RSC before i..
5) Learn to ride a bike! (just found out when talking to baby)
6) Find myself a someone..
Maybe this year i will resign my post in church, pass to someone more dedicate and passionate, so it is easier when i leave. But everything i will leave to God, for He is my shepherd i shall not fear.
Heavenly father im sorry for being a sinner and a jerk in this awful year, i had broken Your heart and done a lot of mistake. im sorry Lord. i pray for a good year and i surrender myself for You in the coming year Lord. Please guide me and hold me tight, please dont give up on me Father. I'd learn my lesson now i promise.. i will be good. in the name of Jesus Christ i pray.. Amen.
Christmas is around the corner and i am superb exited and happy about it~ today specially, feeling so relief and relax~! didnt know that my job is actually stressing me out that much, concentration of the work has drown me since december, and it is significant to enough to distract me from my holiday mood.
today is somemore baby's birthday, it totally add up my excitement, and the cake my sister order.. gosh! my goodness!!! you should look at it too!! so cherishing! non stop smiling, you can call me lunatic now. well, its christmas, i dont need another reason to cherish myself, i can smile for no reason... heheheheh~
However there is something i will never forget in this season, which is the main reason im being happy.. The birth of Christ (=
The birth of Christ has been in the calendar for more than 2000 years. He live for only 33 years and the time He spend in spreading gospel (3 years) is enough to change the history of the man kind. Sadly, He was crucified by his own race but with this crucification, He had completed the salvation Lord has prepared for us. What a sacrifice He did to the man kind to save us from our own sin. His death has free us sinner from the forever death and give us another option, eternity!
"Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord" (Luke 2:11)
Many are vaguely aware that Jesus Christ's birth, life and death were prophesied in the Hebrew Scriptures, the Old Testament. But few are aware of the sheer number of predictions and the astonishingly precise details foretold up to thousands of years in advance. These predictions are a powerful confirmation of the accuracy of Bible prophecy.
In this christmas season, beside charishing the moment, i will never forgot how Christ was born in Jerrusalem and how is He getting prepared to die for us which has been proven right from the prophecy..
roza: beverly i think the chemical spilled.. i ran outside. when i ran out the chemical already spilled. thx goodness its only filled with around 20L of waste, estimated around 10L spilled and flow out to the drainage.. i think
The smells was awful! imagining the smells of a mixture content concentrated acid, highly flammable solvent, volatile compound, included all those toxic waste.. i can smell it in my nostril now. wild guess, estimated already been few hours after it has been spilled and luckily the day is not as hot as usual, the cold weather keep the waste stay in the drainage, its just that it has been evaporated and the smells.. my goodness..
yuri was notified and everyone started to panic, i can see otomo's red turnng face (hahaha..), ok i mean turning serious and then the emergency plan took place > dried out those spillage with absorbent and dilute it with water. we were all then started to put up with safety equip and take care of the mess..
Thx God, He is so great, heavy rain wash out everything, include us (fuh~) after every job was carried out.
I now smell like solvent and sweat, while half of my cloth have been touched by the rain.. Everything ended around 630
yuri: otsukaresama desu minasan~ taihen desuyo.. me: hai~ otsukaresamadeshita. osakini shitsureshimashita! then he replied, ii shumatsu desu! i noded
while my brain been thinking how should we explain this on monday.. dayem~
and of course i was late to caroling.. luckily today end earlier.. and my mind still thinking about the explanation.. here goes my evaluation week.
