Anthem Of Our Dying Day - Story of the Year

Looking back in end of last year, i was so energetic, full with new year wishes and new hope. I still remember my new year resolution.. i mean some of them..

1) Improved my spiritual life (i did!)

2) Publish paper and contribute to renewable energy firm (fail)

3) Upgrade my chemist license (yeap!).

4) dont remember..

.. ending this century in another 2 days, what is my new year resolution? funny i dont have one. im like an empty shell with no soul. looking back this year, i dont know what have i achieved. Work is a mess, spiritual life is falling apart, life even in a shit hole. This year i stop to do my account since my hand bag was stolen, ever since then, i spend like hell. a lot on unnecessary stuff like.. i dont even know what!!???!!

never know when we are in ages, time flies supremely fast. in a blink of eye we are in heaven with a perfect job and perfect life; in a slip of breath we have nothing on our hand. Prophet said that we came to this earth with empty handed, we shall leave this earth with nothing too.. just never know i can experience the 2nd sentence so fast. what a year! fuh~!

Here i set and even writing down my new year resolution:

1) Practice reading, at least 3 books.

2) Go abroad and live like a beggar!

3) Adopt new hobby, like swimming?

4) New chemist license, CSJ and RSC before i..

5) Learn to ride a bike! (just found out when talking to baby)

6) Find myself a someone..

Maybe this year i will resign my post in church, pass to someone more dedicate and passionate, so it is easier when i leave. But everything i will leave to God, for He is my shepherd i shall not fear.

Heavenly father im sorry for being a sinner and a jerk in this awful year, i had broken Your heart and done a lot of mistake. im sorry Lord. i pray for a good year and i surrender myself for You in the coming year Lord. Please guide me and hold me tight, please dont give up on me Father. I'd learn my lesson now i promise.. i will be good. in the name of Jesus Christ i pray.. Amen.

We Wish You A Merry Christmas - All 4 One

Fact:

"Rudolf the Red Nose Rain Dear" and "White Christmas" was written by Jews.

JC was born in Bethlehem and His sacrifice completed the salvation.

Taiwan earth quake didn't took any life.

Tiger's sponsorship will reconsider their fund.

Ben Bernanke is the person of the year.

No church-goin for the First family.

A volcano in Philippines awakens.

Private funeral for Brittany Murphy held on Christmas eve.

Dubai is facing serious financial issue.

Johnny Deep is still the hottest living person.

Mexico City had become the first city in Latin American to allow same sex marriage.

Careen birthday was the hottest birthday i had ever attended.

Christmas is a day which we all should spend our time with the loves one.

I am still alone in my Christmas.

Merry Christmas to me.

Overwhelmed - The Butterfly Effect

Christmas is around the corner and i am superb exited and happy about it~ today specially, feeling so relief and relax~! didnt know that my job is actually stressing me out that much, concentration of the work has drown me since december, and it is significant to enough to distract me from my holiday mood.

today is somemore baby's birthday, it totally add up my excitement, and the cake my sister order.. gosh! my goodness!!! you should look at it too!! so cherishing! non stop smiling, you can call me lunatic now. well, its christmas, i dont need another reason to cherish myself, i can smile for no reason... heheheheh~

However there is something i will never forget in this season, which is the main reason im being happy.. The birth of Christ (=

The birth of Christ has been in the calendar for more than 2000 years. He live for only 33 years and the time He spend in spreading gospel (3 years) is enough to change the history of the man kind. Sadly, He was crucified by his own race but with this crucification, He had completed the salvation Lord has prepared for us. What a sacrifice He did to the man kind to save us from our own sin. His death has free us sinner from the forever death and give us another option, eternity!

"Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord" (Luke 2:11)

Many are vaguely aware that Jesus Christ's birth, life and death were prophesied in the Hebrew Scriptures, the Old Testament. But few are aware of the sheer number of predictions and the astonishingly precise details foretold up to thousands of years in advance. These predictions are a powerful confirmation of the accuracy of Bible prophecy.

In this christmas season, beside charishing the moment, i will never forgot how Christ was born in Jerrusalem and how is He getting prepared to die for us which has been proven right from the prophecy..

Shalom and merry christmas..

Victim Of A Chemical Spillage - Oi Polloi

roza: there is some smells outside..

later..

roza: beverly i think the chemical spilled..
i ran outside.

when i ran out the chemical already spilled. thx goodness its only filled with around 20L of waste, estimated around 10L spilled and flow out to the drainage.. i think

The smells was awful! imagining the smells of a mixture content concentrated acid, highly flammable solvent, volatile compound, included all those toxic waste.. i can smell it in my nostril now. wild guess, estimated already been few hours after it has been spilled and luckily the day is not as hot as usual, the cold weather keep the waste stay in the drainage, its just that it has been evaporated and the smells.. my goodness.. 

yuri was notified and everyone started to panic, i can see otomo's red turnng face (hahaha..), ok i mean turning serious and then the emergency plan took place > dried out those spillage with absorbent and dilute it with water. we were all then started to put up with safety equip and take care of the mess..

Thx God, He is so great, heavy rain wash out everything, include us (fuh~) after every job was carried out.

I now smell like solvent and sweat, while half of my cloth have been touched by the rain.. Everything ended around 630

yuri: otsukaresama desu minasan~ taihen desuyo..
me: hai~ otsukaresamadeshita.
      osakini shitsureshimashita! 
then he replied, ii shumatsu desu! i noded

while my brain been thinking how should we explain this on monday.. dayem~

and of course i was late to caroling.. luckily today end earlier..
and my mind still thinking about the explanation.. here goes my evaluation week.

Jingle Bell Rock - Fall

 First day caroling.. my fingers are swollen. havnt play for quite some time.. fuh~ here goes my 1st nite, 3 more to go! (=

Satellite Heart - Anya Marina

I’m lost in the dark, I’m spun out so far, while you stop, I start.. but I’ll be true to you..

It so pretty, so smart, such a waste of a young heart. and what a pity, what a shame, wads the matter with you, man. Dont you see its wrong, and cant u even try to get it right? Out of mind and outta sight and put a lid on all that noise!!!!

Concept - Cranberries

Consistency and clarity are so essential when defining in living concept (or in a relationship i shall say). However, glossaries that available currently are lacking in these respects to a certain extent in our society nowadays.

People in the millennium centuries always portray an abrupt metamorphosis whenever they met any changes or difficulties. Vows can be easily changed and actions can be easily erased whenever there is a medium. Most of the time unacceptable reason was given out by these doctrinaire while we always have to gives ways and endure with it through time flies. I was wondering, what the hell these people actually want? cant they just be an investor in feelings? Cant the distance measured in a shorter path? what actually their brain was made off? i gasped. i fist. People never understand how importance is the concept as life rolls. All we get is a silence treatment. Sometimes how i wish tremendous reflex could easily take part just to show that the concept was actually complying within..

...or maybe after all, it is a terminology that is too heavy for us

Before I Forget - Slipknot

Saw a shirt writing Forget yesterday that day when shopping with baby, and it really define what i should do now. On d bottom of the shirt, rock with me.. yeah~ i should rock it out huh~ and finally i bought it when i was in kl, haha~ cheaper price though...

I woke up feeling superb annoyed in this breezing morning by my alarm, driving for 30min with half of my eye closed and first thing i got from boss otomo, was hell. gosh~! wondering shakespears was the only misogynist, i double confirm (again!) that sapiens from nippon aslo share the same character. a gathered meeting at 9 told us about information for the training (which im going to miss) tomorrow and introducing our Yanmar brand, Solutioneering Your Everlasting Smile. i totally doesnt get the whole point of it, as it was inject subcutaneously to my skull with > the brand management, > importance of the branding system, > globalizing the yanmar brand, and what so ever branding-related-idea, it doesnt even ring a bell in my solid head, and the saddest part is, i have play along by pretending that im actually listening and focusing, i felt like a donkey now.

Japan, i couldnt deny that is well developed and consist the best technologies in the entire globe... (i could say). Expansionist policies led to Japan's participation in World War II years back, ended the country by atomic bombs that were dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki by the US army, built up what they are now. Today the country is highly industrialized and noted for its advanced technology, Tokyo is the capital and the largest city with the population of 127,000,000. and for me today, i am stuck here with bunch of icon illustrated as living solidified mechanical tarantula monster with brain half of the size of their body, who they believed only to themselves, who can lead the technologies, and who they believed only to themselves, are still the smartest living 2 legs.

Malaysia is a peaceful country and im living in my own oppressive and cruel world by those mentally ill tyrant. pathetic huh~!

Get Busy - The Roots

amended 08/12/09

ok so basically when i talked to baby then only i notice i am in a real busy month, i have to list it out so i woundnt miss any single of it..

1) 2010 Junior Youth Fellowship members election on 27th (check)
11) KL trip 28/11-01/12 (check)

2) Day trip outstation on 4th to LD for seminar and training (check)
12) Wedding banquet 4th, 730pm, Super Tanker (check)
      - directly go after land in kk...fuh!

3) Junior Youth Orientation camp on 5th-6th (check)

    - Almost forgot im handling the friday night program!!!
13) Baosuk wedding Hoi Mun Chu 6th, 33 bukit padang (check)
14) Wedding banquet 6th, 630pm, Meridien (check)
15) Sisterhood for Baosuk 7th, 730am (check)
16) Wedding banquet 7th, 630pm, Equatorial Restaurant (check)
17) Bassist for sunday service (13th) practise 9th, 815pm, church
18) Guitarist for Chiristmas Caroling start from 10th-12th, 7pm gathered in church
       - and i havnt practice yet.. ops~ ok start it tonight..
4) Guitarist for christmas carol performing at gaya street (some where round 15th??) (confirm 15th)

    - i havnt even practise any of them and seems like i will miss the 3rd practise this coming sunday..

5) House Christmas party + Mum's birthday~ (my fav~!)

    - havnt shop for house deco, havnt even buy 1 single christmas present yet, havnt order cake n food n almost everything!!!)

6) 18th, ah B and yingYing wedding!

    - deco + brotherhood in the morning + bassist in church session + group singing (10th, 800pm, church) at night

7) Advisor for 24th night junior youth performance- modern dance

    - havnt finalized the songs and the moves..

8) 24th and 25th Christmas worship dance teaching

    (which 2 of my girls will not be in town during Christmas, and i havnt found any replacement.. yet!)
    (thx for my kids to help me this.. lab u~!)

9) Reunion dinner for 2010

    - erm.. haven't finalized anything yet, still looking for quotations and tic have to distribute before Christmas~

10) Me and micha next year trip!

    - ticket + visa + location and location and location!

anyhow i am still happy for the seasons, cant wait to shop for Christmas present and Christmas deco this friday, loving it so much!! but meanwhile unfinished meeting and practice.. fuh~!

Drive My Soul - Light

...sometimes its pathetic to feel that you are nobody on earth. After what you have been struggling from your life throughout your pass actually meant nothing to your present. Entourage of our breath is slowly killing us by our inhalation, day by day the life itself is fading out from our soul. we are no longer to see even we are watching, no longer to hear even we are listening. life is actually nothing when you really started to think deep..

Heavenly father thank you that you love us with all Your heart, that from a sinner we became your beloved child, from a soil we are given our own soul. forgive us for being foolish most of the time and forgive our stupidity for not obeying You Lord. Now with Lord as our shepherd, we are no longer lost in time.. Please guide us and dont give up on us.. I promise i will be good.. good night.